I am going to attempt to examine my life through this blog. I am going to try to be as honest and accurate as possible with the understanding that I am expressing feeling and memories as I felt (feel) them and as they are recalled to me. I am going to use this blog as a sounding block for feelings that are hard for me to express and a learning tool that will help me to work through some of my own issues. My intent is to come to an understanding of myself and to develop a more positive attitude and self acceptance for who I am and where I have come from. This blog is not meant to hurt anyone or to place blame. It is only meant to help me deal with me.
That being said. I feel that is best to describe one of my philosophies. I chose to name this blog "A Wonderful Life" because I myself wonder what life would have been like if I was never born. Quite similar to the classic movie, I wonder if my presence here has made even a small impact on the world. What would my families life been like? what changes were made negatively because of my existence? What positive effects happened just because I was born? Is there solid reasoning behind people saying that abortion is the best choice? Is it worse to have and keep a baby you do not want, or better to abort and save the child from the pain of not being wanted?
I guess what I am looking for is a way to express things inside me to learn what I truly am, and why I exist. I would love to be able to search through enough of myself to find reason for and relief from dealing with a lifetime of depression. This is my battle and hopefully I can find an "angel" that needs their wings, to write with me and find a reason for my life.
